- Date:
- 26 Jun 2002
- Time:
- 21:19:30
Comments
Dear ISIS,
I was born into a very staunch Muslim family in the US. Learning to
read the Quran the moment I could read. I was under the misconception that
if I did not do as Allah told me to do, I would be punished severely. I
was also told that if I didn't wear modest clothes I was being immoral.
Right from a little girl I wore the head scarf. My friends would ask me
why, and I would tell them "because God said so'.
Around the age of 14, I realized how much of life I was missing out on.
How my father commanded that I do my prayers 5 times a day and never play
any sports because they would only lead me to the devil. One night I was
talking to my parents about college and my father said that I would never
go to college because he had chosen a boy for me and I was about to get
married to him as soon as I turned 18. I was shocked....my mother ran out
of the room crying. I began to plead with my father to let me go to
college. But he said no. When I asked him why, he told me that Muslim
women are not supposed to be educated or go to work. They are supposed to
be good wives, who never disagree with their husbands and be good
honorable women. I couldn't belive my ears. This man was still living in
the dark-ages.
The next day after school I went to the mosque to talk with our Maulvi
Sahab. When I told him about my father's irrational behavior---he agreed
with him. He told me that if all the Muslim men in our community thought
like your father, we would be in a really good place right now.
I was stuck and didn't know what to do. I kept thinking about it till
late that night. At around 2am my mom came to check up on me and found me
crying. That night I came to know what a sick religion Islam was. She told
me that she had been a well educated (Doctor) Hindu woman who had fallen
in love with my father in India. During their courtship my father had told
her that he was very broad-minded and did not want her to convert when
they got married. Against my grand-parent's wishes she married him and did
the Nikaah just so her mother-in-law would like her. Thats where her
nightmare began. Her In-laws would not let her go out of the house. No one
could come and visit her. She was confined in a home where everyone would
spit on her for being a 'Kafir'. They made her read the Quran and do Namaz.
If she didn't they would beat her. My father would come home and force
himself on her. When she would ask him not to, he would tell her that it
was written in the Quran, and she was nothing more than a slave to him.
After about a year of their marriage, they left for the US. My mom was
already pregnant with me.
When I was born he was not too happy with my Mom. He said that if he
had married someone of his own faith he would have had a boy for sure.
Giving him a girl was the way Allah was punishing him for marrying a
Hindu.
When I heard all this I began to hate my father and Islam. I promised
to get my mom out of this situation and also never ever end up like her.
When I turned 18, along with the help of a lawyer, I managed to get my mom
and dad divorced. My mom actually went back to school and has a
flourishing practice now.
As for me, you might say that I reverted. I am a practising and loving
Hindu now. I have changed my name. I live a life full of love and
adoration for a God who does not preach hate, who encourages me to think
and gain knowledge, who shows me the way without fear and who loves
everyone no matter who they are.
Thank You ISIS for letting me tell my story.
Source : http://www.secularislam.org/testimonies/add.htm
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