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I'm
from Malaysia. I left Islam early this year after years waiting for the
right time to do it. I have always been a person who likes to think and
find out reasons for everything. I thought that since I was a muslim, I
wanted to be a good one. So I prayed 5 times a day. I tried to love God
when actually I felt that I only pray so that I wouldn't go to hell.
In 1998 or something, I read about Aishah Bukhari, a Malay girl who
converted out of islam. Even as a muslim at that time, I felt uneasy about
the way the islamic court and her family were handling it. They were only
crazy about getting her back into islam. The islamic party in the north
was already talking about punishment by death for apostasy. How could
people make decision on someone's life or death using a book which the
origin has never been discovered except from word of mouth?
I also remember my islamic teacher telling everybody that the Bible has
been corrupted and the qur'an is pure and original. I asked her how could
she be so sure, and so she quoted a sentence from the qur'an which says
that it will never be corrupted.
Anyway, I found out much about islam in my high school, enough to score
90+. Inside, I was growing more and more against islam.
The qur'an itself is unbelievable. It is so full of hatred and shows how
*jealous* God is. The promise of 60+ virgins to people who died in the way
of God tells me so much of how islam promises earthly rewards in the after
life. 60 virgins sounds so unheavenly. That is just one of my examples.
Some of my other reasons:
- the 9/11 tragedy
confirmed my suspicion of the violence encouraged in the qur'an
- the fact that islam
encourages us to convert as many people into islam. A muslim man can
marry non-muslim who believe in the Book but a muslim woman can't. Now
*that* is a discrimination. We are no longer living in the ice age
where women cannot harmoniously lead a family institution next to her
husband.
- at some point during
the prophet muhammad's time, women are not allowed to go to mosque. in
some places in this world, still exist mosques that prohibits women
from entering and they would even chase them away.
- the fact that women
are not allowed to dress nicely, but only allowed to dress a long
black or white robe with a long scarf. Men and women are separated in
classes and gatherings using the excuse "to avoid arousal".
I feel that islam is only thinking about sex and not pure love.
- men can have up to
four wives. The prophet even had nine!! As a woman, I feel disgusted
with this. Even my partner (non-muslim) finds it unbelievable. Try to
challenge this by letting women have up to 4 husbands, men will
definitely go against it.
- women are treated
like dirt (most of the time). I went for a holiday in the middle east
with my partner and the officers only communicated with my husband and
ignored me just because I am a woman.
- and many other
things, all which the respectable Dr. Ali Sina has stated in this
wonderful website.
I have always put love and justice above my belief. But islam demands
everybody to succumb to islam alone and sacrifice everything for islam.
One day I saw a coverage on a psychic, Sylvia Browne on Larry King by
chance. I was compelled to visit her site and ended up buying her book
titled 'The Nature of Good and Evil'. That book has helped me a lot in
getting rid of my fears, to start to love unconditionally and also took
that big step out of islam.
The muslims in Malaysia won't easily accept my belief that God is Love and
not islam. They will always remain in that web until they learn to accept
other people's belief, to stop inflicting power on every soul and to see
things from every aspect and not just one.
Former Muslim
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